Christian poem 'Denial and Sunset' by Judy Harrell (Christart.com)

Denial and Sunset
by Judy Harrell © 2008

Denial

I, like so many have lived in the state of denial most of my years,
always putting on a happy face and continually stifling my tears.
In fact, when I was a child I made such a good impression,
smiling all the time, never showing an unpleasant expression.

Through the years, I lost my identity by putting my feelings on hold,
while focusing on making others happy denying the thoughts I own.
Afraid of any unpleasantness inside, I never got to know me,
and giving others happiness was all that I could ever see.

Finally in my senior years I'm learning about me,
and know that only God, my creator, can set me free.
For with God given courage I not only can learn who I am,
but, I can use my newly found talents to fit into His plan.

If I would have known that it was God who molded me so uniquely,
and I am not a mistake; for, He wants me to stay true to the real me.
With that understanding my life would not have been wasted,
and I could have avoided all those lost years and tears that I tasted.

The sunset of my days

On this the sunset of my days,
will I finally taste the fruits of being all I can be.
Will I live up to my God given potential,
and be brave enough to get to know me.
Or will I be tempted to give in to others once again,
thus, feeling trapped as self hatred wells up from within.
Oh dear Lord, please don't let the latter be,
for I owe this your creation a chance to be free.

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