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Do It for Christ by Deidre Blair © 1999 Anticipating the crowd, I get nervous inside. In His Word did I meditate? In His Word did I abide? What will come out of my mouth; myself or the Word? Or does it really matter, just as long as they get stirred? I did read a little and even prayed for a while. I hope they don`t sit there and stare like I`m on trial. Will this change a life or make some kind of impact? Do I have the anointing or just a well-rehearsed act? It`s too late to go back for more preparation. It`s time to go forth and give this live presentation. Will they be able to tell that I didn`t spend much time? Should I even be concerned about these questions in my mind? Well, here I am before this room full of saints. I`m feeling pretty queasy; maybe I`ll just stand here and faint. I realize the problem is not nervousness at all. It`s the fact that I`m not ready, and I know I`m going to fall. I should have listened when I heard Holy Spirit say, “Don`t leave. Spend some time with me.” Instead, I just ignored Him because I wanted to satisfy my needs. I probably could have gotten some really deep revelation. I could have been a blessing to someone instead of a misrepresentation. Instead of me being the teacher, I`m the one who got a lesson. I must always be prepared whether it`s a roomful or a room with just one person. I must become humble and pray, seek God`s face and turn from my wicked ways. I must study, meditate and prepare for each assignment as if I have no more days. What God has called me for is serious and all a part of His plan. I must remember that though He chose me, He could have chosen any man. I shouldn`t do this for vain glory; it`s too high of a price. I have to remember that whatever I do, I should do it for Christ. |