Anger, Disappointment, and Shocking Beauty

How many more
Of these people must die
Before your great plan
Is revealed to my eye?

And how many beautiful
Souls must pass
Before I break down
And crumble at last?

How much longer
Shall I suffer and cry
For the ones that I love
As their earthly shells die?

Though their souls live forever
Made perfect in you
Why all this suffering
Must I go through?

I realize this pain
Is just part of your plan
But I'm getting discouraged
Lord, I don't understand

I know there's a great story
Outside of this rut
But here in this moment
I can't tell what is what

Lord I've given you everything
Love, Life, and death
I've given my sins
But I'm not finished yet

Now I give you my anger
My discouragement too
For I don't understand
All the things that you do

Why must they die
And grow sick as they do?
Does this in some way
Bring more praises to you?

I don't get it Lord
Why me and why now?
Yes I know that this will
Make me stronger some how

You look down with purpose
And authority, true
But my heart hurts so much
When things all go askew