Why Me Lord?

I woke up one day, and my life had changed.
It was me who left who made my life strange.

You told me to trust you, to rely on your love,
I didn't listen and I never looked to you above.

I wanted to be free, to do what I'd chosen;
but realized the hard way, then I was frozen.

Time has a way of suspending you in confusion,
without you Lord, I am drowning in delusion.

You trusted me for all these years,
and all I did was cause you so many tears.

I wanted to do what was right to live a life that was honorable,
but you gave me the choice and now I feel horrible.

I feel I have chosen wrong,
and sometimes I feel not as strong.

I always ask, "Why me Lord?" I need you now;
I need you Lord and so now I bow.

As I break down and fall down on my knees,
crying out, Lord forgive me Please Father, Please!

You heard my cries and you felt my sadness,
you gave me hope and you filled me with gladness.

As I felt your warmth surround me, I was too blind to see;
that you were always there beside me, setting me free.

You live in my heart and you are at the very core,
that no matter what I do it is you who will see me soar,
someday you told me you will fix my broken wing
you told me to be patient and to always sing.

To sing with thunder in my voice;
now I have a choice.
To choose you my Lord as I hadn't before,
to know you are there I want you even more.

I hunger for your word, for your mercy for your guidance,
that with you I am safe as I will never be defiant.