The Rising Tide

Flowing through me like energy set to a tune
Pulsing with hope, even when I'm not sure what to do.
Masterfully created, but I feel set aside
I'm scared to give into it, but I feel the rising tide.
Are my followers what truly lead me?
Am I seeking things that only please me?
A rumbling in my spirit that I can no longer hide,
Are you feeling what I do, do you feel the rising tide?
Some people see that I'm struggling,
I think they lift a hand to help.
But their motives are deceptive
I'm left not needing to die to experience hell.
Deep inside I'm just not sure
I feel pressure like I never have before,
My life preservers don't work like they used to
I'm drifting and I'm not sure what to do.
It snuck up on me, the water seemed calm.
But underneath the beauty, there were so many things wrong.
I hid what I could, I waded in the deep
Just when I thought I could take it
The water covered me.
The murkiness of life, the cold, the pain.
I swam as hard as I could above water,
Which I couldn't maintain.
Things within the darkness moved, some seen some not.
I felt like I was dying, I just wanted the pain to stop.
A pray lept from within me
I'm not sure from where it came.
I couldn't even yell it,
But there's power in the name.
"Jesus," my soul whispered.
"Jesus," was all I thought.
Just when I stopped fighting the waves
I felt a Presence drop.
At first, I thought that surely heaven
Had opened up to take me,
But standing before me wasn't an angel,
But a hand reached out to me.
Love reached out with wings of grace,
my fears suddenly had no merit.
I was pulled up out of the raging water,
Felt a beautiful move within my spirit.
I'd heard about it, I'd even dreamed,
But always felt so unworthy.
Regardless of how I viewed myself,
Jesus smiled...I knew he'd heard me.
Far removed my spirit soared
A hope I'd never known was infused.
Though I'd been swept away by a rising tide
It was the very thing that God used.
He showed me my value, my attention now Him
I no longer saw the waves.
I knew at that moment that I would be safe,
No matter how the waters raged.
The tide has scared me with its sudden surge,
And I thought I'd knew how I'd end.
But what I thought meant life was over,
Was what God used to show me His love AGAIN.