Lost...and all alone

I enter the center
the center of my heart
Weeping oh, so deeply...truly torn apart

How much pain, how much rain
can one heart take
How many tears throughout the years
before it starts to break
The lonely times, the lonely rhymes
no love of my own
My heart crumbles, blindly stumbles
lost...and all alone


I enter the center
the center of my mind
Sadness...madness...scared what I might find

I've seen too many scenes
that I shouldn't have seen
Homicide, suicide
everything in between
I try and block it, try and lock it
and find a safety zone
but I always find my mind
lost...and all alone


I enter the center
the center of my body
I cry for somebody...anybody....nobody

Sedated, desecrated
twisted and broken
My body's so shoddy
merely a token
Bruised and abused
down to the bone
With shaking hands it stands
lost...and all alone


I enter the center
the center of my soul
A light shining bright, giving me control

Giving back what I lack
the light is forgiving
Giving in, I can begin
to truly start living
I heal because I feel
true love being shown
and never was I ever
lost...and all alone

This poem won second place for the June 2014 poetry contest